December 2010

December 21st, 2010

Thank. You.

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I’m far too tired to be making much sense really.
Firstly a beautiful white Christmas. A lovely time at home. Time to just be here and be together, quietly.

Astrid and I went out for a long walk in the snow on Saturday and ended up getting caught in a snowstorm. It took us by surprise. That’s the second time in two weeks I’ve found myself caught up in something so unexpected so easily. Two weeks earlier I was caught up in student protest in Russell Square. I managed to get out swiftly but it was astonishing how easy it is to just walk into something with no way out and it can happen so quickly.

Secondly. Thank You. Thank you to you who still carry on reading my blog from fun times to shit times. From being prolific to being barely here. Thank you. And thank you to the amazing Dallas Clayton for sending me a copy of his brilliant new book. An Awesome Book of Thanks.

Astrid can’t wait to get her hands on it (and she can now I’ve written this). Yet more brilliant unicorns and magical creatures. More wonder. More pure imagination. Good for Dallas for being so ace. Good for Dallas for bringing a bit of strange mad himself into the world to make us smile. Thank You.

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December 9th, 2010

I used to make things

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Recently I’ve looked back on my blog and seen that indeed, I did used to make things.

Making things usually coincided with not working full time. I also used to write a few other blogs (which I’ve started doing again). And I still managed to buy loads of fabric and yarn even with no money.

It makes me sad I’ve not been making things anymore. And while I am so grateful for my commercial work, which is really amazing work, and I am very fortunate do do what I do – but I really don’t feel as though it’s what I want to be doing with my life. From a Soul persepective it’s not what I want to look back on my life and see that’s all I did.

Creating my web projects though, that is meaningful.
Time with the girls. That is meaningful.
Time spent making things. That is meaningful.

I went to Astrid’s school today and there was a big tug at my heart to be able to spend more time there. More time in that world. And there is so much I want to share here. Our home looks incredible all beautiful for Christmas. We have a seasonal table, a little tree I made with ribbons and decorations. Beautiful Winter faeries and angels. Lights, The best tree ever. And here sit I, literally sitting on my hands. My heart and my soul just bursting to jump out and be creative and make and do and sing and laugh and cry and run and watch and smile.

And be a mother again. And be me again.

Back on Ravelry – Lupine

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