Recently I’ve looked back on my blog and seen that indeed, I did used to make things.
Making things usually coincided with not working full time. I also used to write a few other blogs (which I’ve started doing again). And I still managed to buy loads of fabric and yarn even with no money.
It makes me sad I’ve not been making things anymore. And while I am so grateful for my commercial work, which is really amazing work, and I am very fortunate do do what I do – but I really don’t feel as though it’s what I want to be doing with my life. From a Soul persepective it’s not what I want to look back on my life and see that’s all I did.
Creating my web projects though, that is meaningful.
Time with the girls. That is meaningful.
Time spent making things. That is meaningful.
I went to Astrid’s school today and there was a big tug at my heart to be able to spend more time there. More time in that world. And there is so much I want to share here. Our home looks incredible all beautiful for Christmas. We have a seasonal table, a little tree I made with ribbons and decorations. Beautiful Winter faeries and angels. Lights, The best tree ever. And here sit I, literally sitting on my hands. My heart and my soul just bursting to jump out and be creative and make and do and sing and laugh and cry and run and watch and smile.
And be a mother again. And be me again.
Back on Ravelry – Lupine