A week of feeling (home)sick

In the spirit of Yvonne’s publication of her email to me on the matter of her having a shit week, here’s the email I bashed out during a precious moment of Astrid-sleep. I’d been planning a week of feeling (home)sick post – and, just like Yvonne’s, my email was destined to become a (highly unedited stroke rushed) blog post.


Astrid – on the mend


Hi you,

I just read your email again.

Ah well, at least it’s funny at the same time as being bloody awful.

I was up vomiting the other night. Astrid was up vomiting 4 nights running.
Kevin got it. He was up vomiting the same night as me and I begged him to go to work – he got a new contract immediately [ note to blog readers; Kevin got sacked for being off sick with Astrid’s last bug, just a couple of weeks ago, and because he was still in his probationary period there wasn’t much to be done ] – it’s for 5 weeks and so possibly no work over xmas but who knows. But yes, Kevin went to work ALL WEEK. I have been thinking about writing a blog post called, Kevin our hero, or something like that. Because to manage a week of work feeling like that makes him a bloody marvel. And it makes me love him even more because he did it for our little family.

Yes, so Astrid’s at home while we still pay for childcare and Kevin’s work is, well, uncertain. But he can always get work easily anyway. It’s just a bit scary with me not working, out, earning regular money – which was the point of us coming here – and Christmas coming up.

But that is us to a tee. Life on the edge and all that. Ha. Neither of us are the kind to stay somewhere – especially not when there are idiots running the show. Today I resisted a dress on sale at Whistles, which would have been perfect (ie it would fit the bump and look nice). So next week i AM going to make myself those robe rouge dresses I keep promising myself, from the marc jacobs cashmere and the cotton jersey I bought before we came here.

I cancelled my wallpaper subscription about half an hour after ordering it. In a way i really enjoy living on a super tight budget. And all these postal taxes and charges are really, really helping! And i am supposed to go on maternity leave as of monday, and suff is NOT finished. Because I’ve lost two weeks work out of the past four due to having Astrid home sick. And i am desperate to make all this stuff I’ve got lined up.

Including stuff for you which i bought just the best ever linen you’ll love and things like linen ribbon for MONTHS ago and haven’t had time to make yet. I’ve also got dolls designed, little aprons to make up, baby bags, baby blankets to sew and knit, treasure pouches to be sewn, cards to be bagged up, a set of cards to gocco up and a shop to open.

I had a blog contest before we left Auckland and the poor old winners still haven’t got their stuff. Although I’ve got a little pile going. I suppose that’s just the way a+b contests work. Run the contest really early. And send the prizes out on time. On time being at least six months later. If not longer. Hmm. Not convincing.

And to top it all off, well, the above made me really homesick – especially as Kevin would have got that promotion in Auckland – and then a friend emailed saying come home. And then I got really homesick.

… but then it snowed. It really snowed. We were all too sick to go out, but we looked out the window and there were big huge fluffy snowflakes falling. And they blanketed everything. A proper, big, snow. And I thought also we’ll visit you in Spring, definitely. We’ll rent a car and drive over. And go to Provence next Summer. Because that’s why we came here. To shop at Muji and Liberty and Loop and Upper Street and Selfridges and Heals and Marimekko and Borough and Spitalfields and Brick Lane, to do some amazing work to put on our CVs, to see snow, to live by the Heath again, to visit you, to take Astrid to France in the Summer, to walk everywhere and to learn to knit at Loop. So instead of wishing we were back home the snow reminded me to enjoy where we are.

It’s been a shit week hasn’t it! At least I’ve got some knitting in. And your house will be brilliant once it’s all done. As I always say, everything is always over in the end. Now it really is high time I sent you your chin up package.


ps. Astrid is starting to talk now. This morning she pointed at everything in the kitchen cupboard and wanted to look at everything in detail and know its name.







19 responses to “A week of feeling (home)sick”

  1. olga avatar


    – sorry if it sounds strange, just felt like saying it…

  2. Yvonne avatar

    Ha ha ha – I second Olga (never do the hugs thing) but you and I could really use a good old hug. So here you go, you’ll probably never see me doing it again … here it comes ….


  3. Creature of Habit avatar

    Man, that is a shitstorm!

    Things will be back on track soon….


  4. kimberlee avatar

    yeah, oh my gosh. raining shit!

    hope things start looking up soon. but snow! ahhh! how amazing 🙂

  5. Nanette avatar

    All this and the third trimester to boot!
    These things are sent to try us for sure. You’ll rise above it all, I’ve no doubt!

  6. Emily S. avatar

    Oh Charlotte… I hope things get better, and fast. You’re in my thoughts.


  7. lies avatar

    Man! (superKevin) and Woman! (superyou).
    I’m sorry it was so horrid for you guys and I wish we all had a money tree. ‘t Is no different here, we are poor too (artists ha) but now we’ve even managed to live without a car. Our washing machine is on the blink – but perhaps Santa will fix it… Who knows! Isn’t life fleeting anyway. Like SNOW (it may sound funny C BUT I MISS SNOW.)
    keep it up, your posting is marvellous!

  8. Lyn avatar

    Man what a arse hole outfit to give you the sack cos you’re off sick with your kid he’s better off out of there. But can appreciate the stress it creates, bills to pay, rent to meet. He is a good man to keep up with the daily grind despite feeling so sick.
    Take it from me homesickness is overrated! you often tend to remember the great things about home when things turn to shit where you are, but its often through rose tinted glasses. I’ve been in almost your exact position(except swap Perth, WA for london) but difference is we did rush home in retrospect now I wished we had stuck it out. For a start the house we owned there would now be worth a small fortune, but thats us always one step behind the eight ball groan!! Hope this weeks treating you better. Take care,

  9. leslie avatar

    oh, i hope things start to look up. real soon. enjoy that snow!

  10. Heleen avatar

    Hi there, first time caller-long time listener here; SO hope you’re all feeling better now, sending some nice warm sunshine from nz.

  11. Fiona avatar

    Oh, Charlotte, I’m so sorry to read all of this. What a craptacular time you’ve had. It’s been a one-thing-after-the-other kinda month for us too. Anyway, so I just wanted to say that I’m thinking of you, that I hope Astrid is on the mend, and that I love that you’ve made the move to London for all of those wonderful reasons. Take care, xo.

  12. Pauline avatar

    ‘Craptacular’, that’s funny 🙂
    Hope you are all feeling better soon.

    {{big hug}}

  13. Alicia A. avatar

    ahhhhh… tee hee. (laughing with you, right?)

    I’m hoping things are looking up today.

  14. Tamar avatar

    Dearest Charlotte, maybe it’s a worldwide thing…we had a crappy week too,serious teen stuff going on here, god , I wish they were little again, or 30! I hope we all (including Yvonne) have a better week coming ahead:)

  15. Irene avatar

    We do need those heavenly bells reminding us to live in the present tense…Wishing you love and healing.

  16. tiel avatar

    that all sounds absolutely hideous to me!!

    But I feel your pain. Nothing worse than being sick with sick kids. You just have to soldier on.

    My daughter has only been vomiting sick twice in her 4 years (touch wood). The first was nothing really, but the second was a whopper! Right in the middle of our bedroom, middle of the night, all over the carpet!!!! IT looked like she had drunk a bottle of red wine…..I know this because I have seen it from me in my younger days. (it wasn’t of course) I’ll just shutup now because talking about this isn’t going to cheer you up!!

    Big smiles. wishing you a very happy new week.

  17. Lindsay avatar

    Oh I’m so sorry you’re feeling homesick, you’ve had an awful week. Home will always be there though, and when you do go back you’ll find that things haven’t changed much (well that was my experience when we had our couple of years away and I wish I hadn’t let the homesickness get to me as much as it did!) Hope you are all feeling much better.

  18. Nick avatar

    Sounds like you’ve had a tough time the past few weeks. We’ve also had some tough times this year, and like you said ” everything is always over in the end” – which is so true.

    Hope your family are all feeling much better in all ways soon.

  19. julia avatar

    and again…your words are perfect.

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